Good Enough, or NOT Good Enough: How are you feeling?
Numbers 11:23 (Amp Bible) The Lord said to Moses, “Is the Lord’s hand (ability, power) limited (short, inadequate)? You shall see now whether My word will come to pass for you or not.”
Let me tell you a little bit about myself.
Before the age of 5, my mother left me a couple of times with my aunt and uncle. And though she left me with my aunt and uncle, there would be one more time when she would leave me again. By the time I turned 14, that time had come when I would watch her walk out the door every Tuesday morning. She was going to work as a live-in maid, which is why she always left before. Always for work but at an early age I did not understand! Our separation left me with mixed feelings and lingering questions, “what is wrong with me? Am I not good enough?” These questions always leave an everlasting doubt about if I will ever be Good Enough.
I am Not Good Enough
The feeling of Inadequacy or not being enough is hunting, much like another person following you around. The harder you try to feel like you are enough, the harder you must work. As a result, you may feel defeated at every turn. And working hard does not help.
The harder you work the more you feel like a failure or always ill-equipped. You blame your failures on lack of education, and knowledge or your perception of others.
The Comparison Game
The comparison game will always leave us short. Our perception of others is faulty. Why? Because we do not know their story, their struggles! What they endured to be where they are today.
Physical and Mental
Living with the feelings that come with Inadequacy or lack of is dangerous. These feelings take a physical and mental toll on us. We become exhausted and that can lead to depression and anxiety. Worry causes sickness, not only sickness but death. in so many, many ways. The question is how do you want to live?
Examples from Scripture
Two men of God come to mind. Moses and Jeremiah. Do you remember the conversations God had with these men? Moses was an older man, and Jeremiah was a young boy. God had a chat with these men who felt they were not good enough.
Exodus 4:10 (NASB) Then Moses said to the Lord, “Please, Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither recently nor in time past, nor since You have spoken to Your servant; for I am slow of speech and slow of tongue.”
Jeremiah 1: 4-8 (NASB) Now the word of the Lord came to me, saying, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, And before you were born I consecrated you; I have appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Then I said, “Oh, Lord God! Behold, I do not know how to speak, Because I am a youth.” But the Lord said to me, “Do not say, ‘I am a youth,’ Because everywhere I send you, you shall go, And all that I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, For I am with you to save you,” declares the Lord.
Moses and Jeremiah gave God excuses for why they could not do what God called them to do. But God did not give up on them. And He will not give up on us.
God designed and equipped us for a purpose. God does not call and leave us on our own! He did not call Moses or Jeremiah without walking with them and preparing them.
As Moses grew to love and trust his relationship with God, the feelings of lack grew less and less. And the same can happen for us.
Romans 8:15 (NASB) For you have not received a spirit of slavery leading to fear again, but you have received a spirit of adoption as sons and daughters by which we cry out, “Abba! Father!”
I am still learning to trust God and walk by faith and not by sight. You could never have told me that God had a book for me to write. Or two websites for me to manage. Or that He would give me a voice to speak about my pain to help others.
These are the task God put before me, and He has a mission for you too. So, if you feel like you are not good enough or inadequate, keep walking and keep trusting, God is with you every step of the way. Remember who created you, and He has a plan for your life!
You and I are God’s unusual and incredible work, and He uses us to accomplish His work, His extraordinary work.
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